why you gotta rev mahh gas?!
Wow I’m so stupid..
You do this shit every time. And it’s not like I’m going to see you all week, so I can’t bitch at you. I promise I would text you, but I feel asleep. So when I did at 11, I was hoping you would reply. I’m sorry. I thought we could of made this work and try again. But I was wrong. Fuck you. Trying to be a player or some shit. Like the fuck you doing ALL week that we can’t talk. Maybe I thought things to far. Daydreaming about us. I really wanna talk/hang with you this off week. But idk not the way this is going. I’m so stupid.
I am going crazy in my house. I’m goings stir crazy. Omg fucking hate it here. I need to be out- I getting real fucking sick of talking on the phone
So yeah,
I hate that I can’t stop thinking about. It’s insane. Especially that I don’t like you like that…kinda. Truthfully, I’m dying to talk to you right now. I just wanna talk to you on the weekends. But I know you won’t reply. Then you say you wanna get to know me and be my “friend.” But the truth is your actually a bad fucking friend. We either should try to talk then go someone or not talk at all. Honestly, your the only person I wanna be in a relationship with. I should just play hard to get and ignore but I can’t. I hate myself for that.
In other news, who the fuck told you I’m hanging out with such-n-such? I don’t even like her, I much rather hang with you. But I could today because my parents. My apologizing crap on Monday.
I love work:’) the only place where I’m truly happy and have true friends there.
Wth? Why does nobody wanna call/text? It’s Saturday night. Not even 10 yet. So why won’t anyone answer my phone calls? I’m one lonely motherfucker
You know whatever the fuck this is? (So many missy going to ask me why i going to be out tomorrow:*) anyway. I miss you. Really. And something you said kept me think about you all the time. You make me go djlajvbuiwvrjonao! Ugh I can’t stand it sometimes. But I miss you. And I want to be with you. No friends bullshit. I like you again;)
Haha.
Bitch I motherfucking played you and you do that shit to me today? I have no regrets and no worries. I’m not even looking back or dwelling on the past. That God you told me you wanted to be “friends” because I’ve been wanting to say that too you since last week. I just couldn’t bring myself to it. I never really like you to begin with. And I was not about to be friend-zoned. Today you want to try to talk to me and fucking yank me and grab me s aggressively for a hug? Fuck that shit. I don’t hug my friends. And when you tried to talk to me earlier. I had nothing to say. I thought it was just other people when we were talking but nope I just never really had or wanted to say anything to you. It’s strange because I actually love talking.
I wish I could go back in time on Thursday at lunch and I wish I ever told you. I don’t even like him! But I have to keep trying because I Doug myself too deep. Fuck my ducking life. I don’t even wanna talk to anyone. I hope everyone forgets honestly its not even a big deal. I hate everyone I just don’t wanna talk to anyone. The I try to call you at 1. Really? You can’t talk nor message me back?! I so dne with your shit. But we’ll see after this week. I really don’t like you anymore since after thanksgiving break tho. You
Ugh I don’t know what to do anymore. I don’t like you but I don’t wanna be mean and stop talking to you altogether. In that case, she would win. I guess the real reason I’m still talking to you is because I trying to get myself to like again. Idk. But we never talk during the weekends. And remember when you wanted to hangout and ask me on a real date? What ever happen to that? I’m failing at my own game. Time to be a player and a bitch.
